Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in Zubin Caiaphas' LiveJournal:

Monday, January 10th, 2005
7:51 pm	Words When I think of heaven Deliver me in a black-winged bird I think of flying down into a sea of pens and feathers And all other instruments of faith and sex and God In the belly of a black-winged bird. Don't try to feed me I've been here before And I deserve a little more (Chorus) I belong in the service of the Queen I belong anywhere but in between She's been crying and I've been thinking And I am the Rain King And I said mama, mama, mama, why am I so alone I can't go outside I'm scared I might not make it home I'm alive, I'm alive But I'm sinking in If there's anyone at home at your place, darling Why don't you invite me in? Don't try to bleed me I've been there before And I deserve a little more (Chorus) I belong in the service of the Queen I belong anywhere but in between She's been lying and I've been sinking And I am the Rain King (Bridge) Hey, I only want the same as anyone Henderson is waiting for the sun Oh, it seems night endlessly begins and ends After all the dreaming I come home again When I think of heaven Deliver me in a black-winged bird I think of dying Lay me down in a field of flame and heather Render up my body into the burning heart of God In the belly of a black-winged bird Don't try to bleed me I've been here before And I deserve a little more (Chorus) I belong in the service of the queen I belong anywhere but in between She's been dying and I've been drinking And I am the Rain King Current Mood: thoughtful (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 15th, 2004
12:57 am	Failings Be honest with me. How do I fail? Why? Am I really just some spoilt kid? Current Mood: crushed Current Music: "This is Halloween" - Nightmare Before Christmas (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 1st, 2004
6:52 pm	Thoughts There is very little that makes me happy. This is one polite request. Do not try and take it from me. This will be the only warning. Current Mood: irate (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, August 30th, 2004
11:49 pm	For Kiki, who keeps me remembering See The Sun Lyrics I'm comin' 'round to open the blinds You can't hide here any longer My God you need to rinse those puffy eyes You can't last here any longer And yes they'll ask you where you've been And you'll have to tell them again and again And you probably don't want to hear tomorrow's another day Well I promise you you'll see the sun again And you're asking me why pain's the only way to happiness And I promise you you'll see the sun again Come on take my hand We're going for a walk, I know you can You can wear anything as long as it's not black Please don't mourn forever She's not coming back And yes they'll ask you where you've been And you'll have to tell them again and again And you probably don't want to hear tomorrow's another day Well I promise you you'll see the sun again And you're asking me why pain's the only way to happiness And I promise you you'll see the sun again And I promise you you'll see the sun again Do you remember telling me you found the sweetest thing of all You said one day this was worth dying for So be thankful you knew her at all But it's no more And you probably don't want to hear tomorrow's another day Well I promise you you'll see the sun again And you're asking me why pain's the only way to happiness And I promise you you'll see the sun again And I promise you you'll see the sun again And I promise you you'll see the sun again And I promise you you'll see the sun again I promise you you'll see the sun again See the sun again See the sun again See the sun again See the sun again See the sun again See the sun again See the sun again See the sun again Current Mood: loved Current Music: "See the Sun" - Dido (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 19th, 2004
12:09 pm	Exhaustion and memory loss We'll have a date for Alice's funeral soon. There aren't many left who will come. Things are a lot more tiring than they were. Kiki, we should probably talk about things at some point. Erm... I don't know. I don't know how to explain things. It'll be OK, I think. Don't be worried. Still some responsibilities left. Can't abandon them. Current Mood: tired (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, February 5th, 2004
10:31 pm	War and crap Well, I did my bit. Not sure if people care, or even know, but there's a certain level of satisfaction about having done something about it, even from here. Now. Gwydion. "Can't defend his freehold" my fucking arse... Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: "Toxicity" - System of a Down (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 20th, 2003
7:24 pm	Mad World... "And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad, The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had..." (15 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 1st, 2003
6:59 pm	Words... "I will lend you my strength" Does that mean leaving someone talking to thin air and wandering off when they really want to talk about important stuff? Current Mood: sad (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 24th, 2003
11:20 pm	New Journal And now I have a journal. Even Sidhe need somewhere to rant. (5 Comments |Comment on this)